It’s been several months since I last wrote a blog post. I needed to take a rest from it to help me manage my energy levels. I was struggling to juggle my return to work and still have the motivation to write the blog. The time away from writing it allowed me to focus all my energy on returning to the routine of work and recovery. I am now in a much stronger place than I was in the Autumn physically and mentally.
However, it’s easy to feel as though I’m not making progress, I’m not yet back to teaching my Pilates classes and am still physically very weak compared to my normal levels. I have to keep reflecting back on how I was 6 months ago, when I do it highlights to me how much further forward I am now than I was then. I don’t need to rest as often during the day and my memory and concentration are so much better. I was always a bit ditzy anyway so I am pretty much back to my norm! I frequently say oh ‘I didn’t realise.’ Which has been a longstanding joke since my uni days anyway!
It’s so easy to only be aware of what’s happening now and forget to reflect back. It’s reassuring to see the progress I’ve made and continue to make. My patience with myself remains poor, meaning every so often I become very frustrated by my slow progress. At this stage one of my family or friends are good enough to tell me to wind my neck in a bit!
I’m enjoying the structure and routine of work after such a long
period off sick. I try to distance myself from stress that will use up the small
energy reserves I have. Sometimes this is easier said than done.
I do feel my empathy and patience
has changed with my patients in work. Certainly my understanding of the emotional
aspect of life changing illness has a new personal aspect.
It’s not a significant change but just something I’m aware of.
This is only a short blog, to say I’m back and I will update you
all again very soon. L.x
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